Sometimes no goal is a good goal

havent had much in me creatively lately to write.. well.. I take that back.. alot of writing.. nothing creative.. just deep-

so 2009 is here…another birthday has come and gone.. and I, like many have been thinking about this year and what goals  

( if any )    I’d like to set for myself..

Normally for me- which by the way can be very abnormal.. Hah! would be to set some physical goals.. meaning.. drop some bodyfat..add some muscle.. hit a new PR on lifts. something along those lines.. not so much this year..

I mean yes I still LOVE to train.. it is my drug of choice.. probably will be forever.. but I lost focus on my physical goals somewhere around November.. not sure specifically why..

 I mean others in our family had committments which took away somewhat from theplan I was trying to execute at the time. I began to feel like the stress I was feeling trying to do this just was not worth it.. so I stopped tracking my food.. stopped weighing my food matter of fact.. and just ate what I felt like eating when I felt like eating it..and have had my share of alcohol as well.

I havent dropped off in my gym time though.. although I have gotten to the point where I barely do any cardio.. not on a schedule whatsoever-and as far as my weight training.. meh.. I dabble in a little of this… a little of that.. still always training heavy.. of course a deload now and then..

but when I train- I do it hard.. nothing like throwing around heavy shit..

Interestingly enough.. I’d say I’ve dropped about 5 lbs I think.. I dont weigh myself.. Just gauge with clothes, and nekkidness.  

But anyhow .. I’ve dropped some fat.. all in spite of many many treats, beverages and what not.. so in this sense.. life is good…. I hope to find my focus again someday but for now my goal is just to catch up.. 

Catch up?

Enjoy life…take some me time.. enjoy friends and family..I have felt twinges of new adventures in life here as of late, and as fearful as I might be at times-

I am just gonna enjoy the ride….